Disturbing Incident Concerning Orgasm, Sexual Submission and The State

The original draft got erase conveniently.  I will re create this as best I can.

I was in the shower at a day drop in and a short sexual release is part of my morning routine for health reasons. I find on the East Coast that my sexual drives are alot more out of my control and not releasing this energy leads to aggression or falling into a state of depression that leads to suicide ideation. I also find it helps my immunity.

I was going about my business when my thoughts were interfered with by coercion to direct the burst of energy created by my release to president Obama and that this represented submission to ‘The State’ as ultimate power over my life.

This particular day drop in is a place where I often experience intrusive thoughts or what seems like behavior modification while performing this daily ritual.  And that is a consistent pattern as well as I have done the same in other locations and have noted that this does not occur in at least on other location.

This has also occurred while I was in TX in a hotel room. Sexual activity was not always being engaged in when coercive thoughts concerning  The State and submission were present.  There was an entire time period a few years ago when this was a constant theme. To attempt get me to submit to this ideal of The State. It reminds me very much of Narcotics Anonymous meetings, where one turns one’s life over to a higher power. ‘to turn your life and will over to a god of your understanding’ or something along those lines.

~ by onmc on April 16, 2011.